Im no longer the same person

Meal Plan:

8am : Thermogenics+ProteinShake+3 Hotdogs+yogurt drink
12am : Hotdogs
4am : Steam Fish+mix vege
8am : Thermogenics+Grill Chicken
10am : Protein Shake
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When i look back what i ate on my bfast, i understand why i screwed in my PT this morning.i don't have enough energy and my mind just keep saying i cant do it.its already 2 weeks, but still i cant fully focus doing my training.

PT Menu:

1. Treadmills : 15min
2. Circuit Training
Lunges+Stairs of Death+Shoulder Press Front and Rear+3 round Circle of Death+Incline Bench Press+Lat pull down+wide grip bb curl+close grip bb curl
= 3 round x 3min

3.Super-sets :
Incline Chest+Incline with Plate : 3 Sets

Lat Pull-down : 3 Sets

4.Shock Therapy
Med Ball in and back : 10min

5.Kickboxing : kick right and left : 25 x 3 sets

6.Thread-mill : 30min
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Overall:

Honestly, i realized i develop a feeling afraid of the training we did everyday.Not because its hard, but because i don't want my leg cramp just like last time.Today, when we in the PT session, there's few other member was around.i bet they not M client.and when i was doing the circuit training they were watching me running like hell.hahahaha

i compare myself to them,they just like myself last time , join the gym and just walk around and play with the things.Take their time and feeling good.They don't follow any specific reps and round.They don't have specific area they want to develop.They do weight lifting and just do as far as they can.by end of the day..they feel happy bcoz they did cardio and bit lifting.

Cortisol.....hahaha yes M, IM a JERK!!!.and thanks to you, i now learn everything related back to myself.My reason to have this big body not only because of the way i eat.but everything in my-life.

Im very sure this big belly couse from this hormone.i have almost every things dat potentially trigger this things.damn man....frm job,family,myself and sleep deprivations release this things into me....definitely after i achieve the greatness.i will start a new life and a new job.there it goes...a bigger dream after a dream.