The Way I feel....

530am, i swallowed 2 panadol active fast and continue working in my workstations.its headache doing this all over again for past a month.Shoot, suddenly i realize got my first appointment with the gym in Shah Alam.I'm not sure whether i should go or just cancel it.but this 1 word making me driving down to the stadium this morning. A commitment.



It happen on last Sunday, i was watching the Asia Biggest Loser at Ipah's House. I wonder what happen to myself and kind miss few years back.i was big sizes few years back in my early college day. But its so happen i manage to cut down nearly 20kg with my own method in 3months somehow in my 2nd year. Everyone was surprise and not even recognized me back then but what u expect 90kg guy suddenly shed 20kg.hahahaha

After graduated, my working schedule make me forget on the routine i used to do. No more jogging, swimming or weight lifting. Sometimes i realize i can even see my feet from up here, but im too smart to make myself happy by saying relax you just need to workout a bit n you will be back in shape again. The question is do i have the time to workout?? you know the answer, if not im not going to write this down.hehehe

Whenever i went to college reunion or family gathering people will start saying , Azlan you gain more weight. Like typical Malaysian mouth .... cant u guys just stop your crappy mouth even you notice they changed. F***.Dont you know im not feeling comfortable B****!!!.Have you ever heard that i say your look like donkey or monkey??? aghhh Malaysian will never learn and they just don't know how other people feeling. For them it jokes. Jokes you Ass!!!!



Of course i my dreams is to have those lean and ripe muscle.i prefer to have the fighter body than those super bulky bodybuilder. I really want it .Watching those interview session in the biggest loser is like flashback to me, i really can understand what their feeling even im not as big as them. It's reminde me the feelin of trying to few shirts right before going out just to make sure it can cover my big belly.aghhhhh the frustration when trying to get fit into your favorite jeans,and of course the look of other people when you trying to eat less. Those cynical word that make me feel want to slap them right away.

Not to forget, the girls you want to be with discard us in the list just because we look pity in their eyes.damn!!!! this make me really want to shred this man.....